What Do TOXIC Relationships, TOXIC Boss, TOXIC Parents, TOXIC Children, Friendships, Do To You Mentally?
Toxic relationships cause feelings of low self-worth, helplessness, fear, anxiety, depression, insecurity, paranoia, and even narcissism. “Toxic relationships are dangerous to your health; they will literally kill you.
Stress shortens your lifespan. Do you want to go for the rest of your life stuck in the same thoughts? To wrestle with love, hurt, addiction, vulnerability, intimacy, and grace?
I remember those days when every day I would wake up and felt worthless because I gave my husband at the time to mess with my head. I was young, naïve, and foolish.
Not until I began to not believe those lies and accept his words to be lies to self-destruct me. Is the day I lived my life as a WARRIOR! I stopped giving my heart to a man that was broken and a wretched soul!
When you are young, you have this idea of what a relationship or marriage should be. I know because I saw it in the movies. It was so beautiful and romantic and I believed in my heart when I said, “I do.” It was so coming from a heart of purity and innocence.
When it was time to say my vows. I looked into his eyes and I believed and accepted he was going to cherish me and love me and take care of me for the rest of my life.
I now pronounce you Mr. & Mrs. It’s done. I am a new person. I had hope, and I felt better. In reality, that is the hope for every person who says “I do.”
I set out to write the story of my marriage and my children. I thought marriage began that day. This assumption was my mistake.
I was loved. I thought his love was going to prevent pain. As I lived my secret behind the door. I thought differently. I asked myself, How am I going to deal with this man and the abuse?'' How will I survive?
I felt small. And I felt I did not deserve to be loved. I would look at my daughters and feel ashamed that he was their father and that someday, they would have to deal with an abusive man.
He taught them that love must be accompanied by guilt. They had to prove their love to their father. Yes, I left him and it was difficult but worth it. But I still could not protect them from their father. He was their father, no matter what.
I had to become brave and show them no man should speak, fight, and love that way.
I wanted to know that they were 3 special ladies, and they needed to experience and trust the unfolding and continuous need to grow. I did not want them to shut down.
I wanted them to feel beautiful inside and that they are worthy of offering and receiving love. If they lost their beauty, it would feel like a fall from grace, rendering it useless.
When they would hear him put me down even after the divorce, it would fill my heart with sorrow because I know what it feels like to live in a world of a blur. Confused and broken inside. I wanted his hugs to my daughter to be real and that they shined because of it.
It was as if the four of us were on this island. We were living off an empty bowl, and I saw so many times in their lives where they felt they didn’t belong or they felt insecure and ashamed. They were living under a shadow of verbal abuse without them even knowing it.
My heart felt heavier and heavier against gravity increasing and we were being sucked through his toxic behavior, thoughts, and actions.
Have you ever felt heavy? Like if you are being sucked in and you feel as if you really don’t belong and you feel a sense of unworthiness and all you want to do is give up and cry?
Well, I did. And not until I changed 360 degrees is when I began to live a life of success in my life. Success is holistic. I went on a journey to find out what led me to believe these lies in the first place. What were my lessons?
Based on years of research with the world’s most exceptional thought leaders, CEOs, celebrities, Olympic-level athletes, and many other high achievers, SUCCESS identified a formula that directly correlated with a person’s level of success.
I learned A LIFE WITHOUT LIMITS…
For you to get the most out of the time you’re putting in, you’ve got to apply all of this stuff to your very own life and put in the work.